I THINK I MAYBE...LIKE YOU

Ahahaha hello people!

it's been a while tak update blog.

not really into blogspot these days.ceh2.

anyway,how y'all doing?

i'm having my finals in about 2 weeks time.

gotta gear up.

ouhhh about the title?

yeahhh.i think i'm starting to like YOU..

damn it,damn YOU!

haishhh

-.-

ok?

has been a while since i last updated my blog.

not much has happened i guess.

how are you fellow readers?

hope you're doing fine.

fine?is 'fine' a feeling??

i've always wondering bout that.

anyhow,my mum was admitted last night.her condition so far is still the same.

pls pray for her.she's suffering.

and ouh,me and my bestie?

yeah we're fine.

i think?...

things are not the same anymore.

sometimes i wonder whether i made the right decision to have him back.

kadang2 rasa mcm it's the wrong the decision.

sometimes not.

idk.

it's kinda sad though.but that's okay.

i'm getting over it.life doesn't stop here just because someone is not the same anymore.

let it be.

as for now,i'm having a great time with my friends,lovely biatches.

LOL.

it has been great.been through some interesting experience which i can't tell here*wink wink

so i think that's it for now.gotta scoot!test tomorrow.

ciao

getaway

I'm off to Jakarta for a few days.
hope to get some peace in mind and a great time.
i'll update soon.
goodbye fellow readers!

NUMB

It has been 11 days i'm living my life without you.
a lot had happened.
and most of the time,i need you the most.
but i can't find myself to go and find you like i used to do.
i was mad.
i was upset.
i was angry.
i was hurt really bad.
but now,i think i have to try and let this one go.
like i always do.
i have to fix myself.
i have to TRY and forgive you.
some ask me to go and get you back.
some ask me to stay away.
but what i want?
idk.
exhausted mcm ni.
but i can barely 'move' da.
if things were meant to end,how i wish we could end things the right way.
but you can't find it in yourself to be fair to me.
i wanted to see you for the last time.
i wanted to hear your voice for the last time.
i wanted to salam you for the very last time.
but i don't have that chance.
it is the most terrible goodbye.
i am all alone now.
yes Allah is with me.
but that's it.
while the others said they are here for me,those are just words.
it can never be the same.
they don't know how i feel.
i want to fix things.
but idk how.
maybe i should just leave it this way..

bla bla bla

I NEED MY BEST FRIEND BACK!

:'(

bla bla bla

I NEED MY BEST FRIEND BACK!

:'(

LONG MISERABLE DAY

OMG

I AM SOO TIRED RIGHT NOW.

WHY?

BECAUSE TODAY,I'VE BEEN IN AN ACCIDENT.

THANK GOD NO ONE GOT HURT.

BUT THE CAR WRECKED.

AND I'M THE ONE BEHIND THE WHEEL.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON MY MIND THAT TIME.

SGT PENAT RIGHT NOW.

I CALLED MANY PEOPLE TADI FOR HELP.

THANK YOU FRIENDS.

BUT THEN AGAIN,EVERYONE IS MESSED UP TODAY BECAUSE OF ME.

DAMN.

GUILTY SGT.

HAIIHHH.

what's on my mind?

DON'T TELL ME YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL,

UNTIL YOU'VE BEEN IN THE SAME EXACT SITUATION.

I NEED TIME.

HELL A LONG TIME

TO SEAL BACK THE WOUND THAT ONCE WAS HEALED..FOR A WHILE.

whatever it is,i have to be strong.

yes,of course right now,everything seems to be so blurry.

but i know,

i'll be back on my feet.

soon.

maybe.

for now,let me be sad.

let me be mad.

let me be upset.

let me cry my heart out

let me curse

let me do stupid things.

because one day,

i am NOT gonna look back at this.

i am not gonna look back at YOU.

ohh love you,yes i still do.

xtau bila bole stop.

kau doa la aku dah x fikir pasal kau.

fuck liars

fuck broken promises

fuck false hopes

p/s:kau kejam buat aku mcm ni.

11.1.11

THE DAY EVERYTHING ENDS.
THANK YOU SO MUCH
FOR BEING SO CRUEL.
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
THANK YOU

AND PLEASE,STOP STALKING ME.AND THIS IS MY FUCKING BLOG.
I CAN FUCKING BLOGGED ANYTHING I WANT.
IDK WHAT I DID BEFORE TO DESERVE THIS.
2ND TIME KENA MACAM NI.
JINX KOT.

the waiting is excruciating

IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO RIGHT NOW
PENAT LAA.
PENAT KENA IGNORE LIKE THIS.
IT'S LIKE EVERYTHING I DO FALL INTO WRONG PLACES.
DON'T GIVE UP ON ME JUST YET LA.

selfish act??

Yes,i am happy at the moment.

But then again,i couldn't help but knowing that,someone got hurt over my happiness.

am i selfish??

i don't know.

i don't know what to do.

to that person,idk if you're going to read this.

But please know that i never meant this to happen.

i never thought it will ended up like this.

and i definitely did not mean to hurt you.

and for that,i am truly sorry.from the bottom of my heart.

i truly am.

spreading the happiness

I had the sweetest ending of 2010

and greatest beginning of 2011

I couldn't ask for more.

Thank You Allah,for blessing me with happiness.

I've been longing for this moment for quite a while.

and now finally,yes.

Welcome 2011.

i'm suck with goodbyes

FAREWELL MY DEAR BESTFRIEND.

I FINALLY FOUND THE COURAGE TO LET YOU GO.

IF THAT DAY EVER COMES,I'LL BE THERE AGAIN.

TAKE CARE.

I'VE DONE EVERYTHING THAT I CAN.

NOW,WE'LL JUST LET TIME TELLS.

I LOVE YOU

LOVE YOU MAF.

Taking Chances

In life,you get to choose.

To get in,or get out..

To accept,or decline..

To take,or leave..

To live,or die..

To love,or hate..

It's our life.We get to choose.But how can we know,that our choice,is the best for us?

Well,i guess you can never know until you take chances.

Life is complicated.But you also get to choose,either to make it more complicated,

or try and make it simpler.

I watched Grey's Anatomy just now.its kinda wake up call for me.

I have to give everything i could.so that in the end of the day,when i'm about to die,i will have no regrets.No regrets.No questions of what could've been.

I hope i can die peacefully,InsyaAllah..amin-

THE STORY

HELLO2.you wanna know the truth?

http://hestory.wordpress.com/2010/12/05/the-story

p/s:its 3405 words

craving and pms

NAK COOKIES!TOLONGLAH!CRAVING NIII.:(

This is what happens when you're having your pms.*sigh

ohh,speaking of pms,i made some research*ceh macam x pernah blaja je.

Risk factors

• High caffeine intake^[4]
• Stress may precipitate condition
• Increasing age
• History of depression
• Family history
• Dietary factors^[6] (Low levels of certain vitamins and minerals, particularly magnesium, manganese, and vitamin E) and also Vitamin D

no wonder la i got pms and muscle cramps and stuff.high caffeine intake.

hmm like almost everyday i had caffeine.but just a glass per day.

is that considered HIGH??

shocked state

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

25 november 2011 :)

hahaha bangang

karaoke time!

us:)

and anis the photographer

syg sgt korang!and not to forget my bestie,aneq:')

such a long and tiresome day,but had lotssa fun!so here are details:

11.30am-gerak from putra

12++ pm:sampai pavi.pusing2.ate at food court

2.15pm:went for movie(me,chechi,nad,chin,cha and zai):UNSTOPPABLE

6pm:karaoke time!

9pm:balik putra,sent shaza home

11pm:makan dekat domain(me,chechi,izzah,aiman and cha)

12.30am:went back home

i was having a lot fun until the point where i had food poisoning!damn that asam laksa!i will never eat those laksa again.*sigh.worst part,it ruined my movie.i had to go out like 3 times i think and went to the toilet.siot gila ouh.i VOMIT AND MY WHOLE BODY WAS TREMBLING.well,u guys know how it feels kan bila kena food poisoning.damn.then habis movie,kene bahan dgn zai.hahah siot sangat tuu!and then,we went karaoke.well,macha and aiman have great voices.best lah.sort of like the entertainment for the day.hahah.all in all,i had great time with my darlings.SHAZA,ANIS,IZZAH,ATEN,NAD,CHECHI,HUHA,CHIN,AIMAN,MACHA AND ZAI,THAnK YOU FOR THE FUN!sayang korang especially my babes!

Avenged Sevenfold - So Far Away

This song is written by my sweetheart;p BRIAN SYNYSTER GATES.Dedicated to their late drummer,JIMMY 'THE REV' SULLIVAN.Its epic.i can almost feel how they felt when they lost someone important in their lives.Hope u guys enjoy this as much as i did.;')

sugar rush!weee

HAHAHA.MALAM NI JADI GILA SIKIT.

XTAU KENAPA.MAYBE TOO MUCH SUGAR CONSUMED?

idk.

HEHE TAPI BEST OUH.RASE MCM HAPPY SAJE.

NO DONT GET ME WRONG.

I DONT TAKE DRUGS IN CASE YOU'RE WONDERING.

WANI BAIIKKK.;P

KAN BEST KAN KALAU SELALU HAPPY2 CAMNI.HEE~

AND TO MY SWEET DARLINGS,IF I EVER BEING MOODY KE APE,SUAP JE

ANYTHING SUGARY.NANTI WANI JD GILE CMNI.

TAPI,U GUYS LA KENE LAYAN.TAU2?

KISS SIKIT?MUAHHH!