wrong place,wrong time

i am just so mad,

at myself,,

why?

for getting carried away,

for letting myself overwhelmed by jelousy,,

this is very stupid,,

and suddenly everything that i do tonite,goes wrong.

teh tarik that i made tasted not more than just plain water,,

my blackforest melted-pdhal i placed it at the same place like b4,,

the weather is just too hot tonight,how i wish i could just take of my tee,,

i forgot to take my lecturer's signature as witness for ptptn which i have to submit tomorrow,,

n stop there;ptptn which i only gonna get freaking 4800 bucks for 3 effing years!

and here is the main reason y i feel so messed up;

YOU,yes all i want is for u to be happy,for u to 4get about the past n do wtv it takes to accomplish dat.but i know better.for u to be happy dat way,u hv to move on.n to move on,u hv to find someone else despite how far she is.i know u like her very much..

so,like what i ALWAYS do for u,i'll do wtv it takes to make it work if u want to.

but there is always a part of me,no,not a part.lotssa part that hurting watching u n some other person.lantak lah nk ckp aku jiwang ke hape,i dont giv a fuck.

untill when do i have to suffer like diz??if it is someone else,i will be gone from ur life looong time ago.but its YOU.even u know i cnt make it wo u.so i hv to stay.n i need u to stay.well yeah i know u wont go anywhere.nak x nak,i have to watch u with someone else.coz i cnt bare to see u suffer like the other nite.just pray dat i'm strong enuff to go thru diz.i'm strong enuff to let u be hppy.i'm strong enuff to not get jelous.n i'm strong enuff to let u go 1 day..