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This post is going to be quite merepek.since idk what else to do.haha-.-

just watched Vdays td for the 2nd time.i'm bored.n suddenly i was thinking..

What does being in a relationship REALLY means??

izit being with someone dat u've known in ur almost entire life,

or izit being with someone that u just met,n take the liberty of time to get to know ur partner?

what izit actually?

and i am definitely not talking about marriage lahh.

i'm refering to this 'couple' or 'dating' thingy.

what izit really about?

so,anyone who's reading this,y dun u drop ur opinion.

i would really love to know what u guys think.

ok,next question.

why does most guys;i didnt say all,

lagi pentingkan their ego or pride wtv rather than their own feelings?

u see,i have many guy friends.n most of them have this same attitude.

ok maybe they were born this way?

but that is just a lame excuse.

for instance,the guys who r in a relationship.

there are some of my frenz,who has a gf,

are afraid to express their feelings publicly i.e fb

afraid of what?of getting bashed by their buddies.

there is really nothing wrong rite to just express ur feelings.

and here's another thing,there are some guys which has a really high level

of ego,can't even say SORRY?

well,that is too much ynoe.they are too proud of themselves that

they cnt even see their own faults,admit it n apologize.

now here's smthng personal.i just experienced it yesterday.

when dat one person,who i thought out of all ppl,

shud know me better,totally ignored me when he just absolutely

ruined my night.not a single sorry,heck he didnt even bother to talk to me.

i had made myself very clear last nite dat i was upset with him,

but still no response.till today.

dont u hv the courtesy to say sorry at all??

cmon r u afraid of being vulnerable?

that is totally bullshit.

you know that u dont hv to pretend anything when u r with me.

so y do u hv to act this way?

u r starting to get under my skin ynoe.

please stop before it will gone any worst.

so i guess thats it for now.looking forward to read ur opinions.

smile:)

well i've been busy lately..teettt!!of course not.i'm just lazy to update my blog.LOL.
ok,so i wont be posting or blogging much about my raya celebration because it wasnt that interesting.seriously,it was very2 dull this year.idk y.but i dun rlly care either.

on the 1st raya,we were at home je.abah had to work;or attend najib's open hse for dat matter-.-

due to boredom,me,ayen,hizami n lin went to ou n wtch mvie.

haha so much for raya celebration rite?we watched resident evil in 3d.

the next day baru blk melaka.n then bla3..u know the drill.

and then we went home.

so dat is pretty much my raya so far.hahah.no cmmnt on that.n then on tuesday,me,jim n danial teman famy to go on his 1st date with noccie kt mid.it was quite funny ynoe.LOL.it went well.didnt spent too much time though bcoz i gotta be home by 7-.-

ok n then yesterday,was a rough day for me:(

i had a fight with my mum.frankly,i dun even know y she was very angry with me.*sigh.

n then belle had gone to india last nite.thnk God i got the chance to meet her b4 she go.

thnx to famy,D n apis sbb teman smlm,

n to famy,i owe u a lot.tq for everything dear.thnx for being around.

idk what i would do wo u.i sure hope u can keep ur promise.

thnx for always putting a smile on this face when i dun even want to smile.

and all these stuff that's happening rite now,i know i'm strong enuff to face it.God wont challenge us over our capabilities.n i know i'm capable of handling this..

-.-

2 posts in 1 day?wow i seriously hv nothing to do.LOL.but i really want to blog about this given that i didnt even mention bout 'this' in the previous blog.well maybe i'm just scared?idk.

ok,here goes.last nite,siv borak with me.n he asked me bout,well that particular person.*sigh.

and i just told him,we r just like what we hv always been.n siv ckp,i'm too slow.durh!wth am i supposed to do??i just couldnt risk it all.i'm not that strong i guess.he told me to 'gamble' a bit.

but i'm just too scared.then he started to tell bout his story bla bla bla.yeah i get it.u've been in the same situation.but seriously dude,u were like friends with her for just 3 years i guess.me?waaayyy longer than yours.so its different.n u're a guy.i'm not.so i've been thinking.and MAYBE,just maybe,its time for me to let him go?huhh.i know it damn well that is going to be effing hard n i probably cnt get over him at all.but i hv to try rite?(like i never did that b4=.=)

but really,i have to.bcoz it really hurts..and i hv to care less about him n try not to be too attached to him.yeah,i NEED to do that...

zzz

I LOVE SLEEPING!

why?because when i'm asleep,i dun have to think about anything.

my brain could get the rest it needs.and so does my heart-from the ache.

and when i'm asleep,i'll have the chance to dream of the impossible given how ridiculous that dream might be.i just doesnt have to think about my problems or anything.

and lately,my bedtime is the time that i look forward everyday.

so,i'm home now.for raya celebration.well,i'm not really into it.i just didnt get the vibes,yet.and after raya,about a month or so,i'll be having my finals.when i come to think of it,how time passed us so fast that we didnt even notice.or at least i didnt.there's just so much to do,so little time.but whatever it is,i'm really glad i'm home.

and now,i shall blog-just briefly-about the week i had;

30th august 2010;

• i got swollen eyelids.seriously i have no idea how i got it.the doctor said it is most prolly bcoz of allergies*even he didnt know y.got mc for a day
• missed my csc401 quiz.but lucky me,the lecturer is nice enough.
• spent merdeka nite ALONE in my room watching gg.pathetic huh?i know.even all my roomates went out dat nite-.-

31st august 2010;

• aneq came around 3pm to pick me anis up.i drove to bangi to pick up shaza n went to ukm
• met luqmal n nisa.lepak2 at her room while anis n luqmal went out to 'bandar'.LOL.we kept on changing our plans while waiting for em.sumpah lwk sgt that time.
• break fast at the cafe.a few kuih keling,cempedak goreng,lemang,drinks,and we were done.
• drove to ts.sampai sesat2 at kl.luckily,it wasnt that hard to find ts.thx for the help,D and famy.
• kene saman bcoz parked the car beside the yellow line.huh great=.=
• drove bck to s.alam n went to kamal's corner.
• somehow oddly,shaza lost 1 of her flip flops IN THE CAR!how is dat even possible?LOL.and it was viva for crying out loud!hahaha-sorry babe,da ramai pun tau;p
• shisha;)-sorry to anis too dat u got headache dat nite.wont shisha when u're around da.

1st sept 2010

• after isyak,drove to the curve to redeem out mvie tckets for step up 3d:)
• went to rasta(ohh i miss dat place) teman aneq beli handbags.such a downer bcause i'm totally broke and cnt buy any-.-
• went bck to curve for the mvie.enjoyed it.it wasnt that bad.ok la.nut the storyline is cliche.but the coreography,the best!and i love you MOOSE ALEXANDER!-reminds me of someone,or at least i wish they were the same*sigh
• drove to kl.konon nak pegi lookout point at ampang.got lost in kl for almost 2 hours.then only we found it.thx to caja for giving the direction n teman me when everyone else were asleep.-.-
• the view was a shiznit.but i think it will be a lot better if we waited for sunrise.but the time wasnt in favour.
• went for sahur.idk how my finger tersepit kat pintu kereta(dayummm dat hurts!)
• drove bck to s.alam.

2nd sept 2010

• accidentally dozed off till i missed my acc class.
• took my csc401 quiz.Alhamdulillah it went well.
• went ss2 to buke puase with aten n huha.and to clbr8 her belated bday.

3rd sept 2010

• took maths logic quiz;totally fucked that one up.bummer.
• went home:)

so that pretty much sums up my week.except for weekends.i'll stop now.toodles