sore~

urgghhh!!i'm so sick of diz..da 2 mlm da..the pain is still there..did evrything(except went to the doc)but it wont work..huh,fed up lah cmnii..i told mummy but she doesnt seem to care.heh,nvm2.dun need it pon.i can stand on my own.abah is coming bck home tomorrow..things r still awkward btween us..idk for hw long..n ouh yea,l8ly nihh,i seem to hv lost all my feelings n even my heart.idk y but i just dun care.i dun care if no one texted me or talk to me..i just dun..well,i told diz to HER,but nevertheless,she's also doesnt seem to care kott..cuz the nxt day nye when i asked her,she totally forgot..ouh lantak lah..i dun gv a damn..n to my frenz out there,if u just dun care bout me anymore,its ok.really.fine by me.just dun bloddy pretend lah dat u r cncern bout me..u disgusted me..whteverlahh..i'm soo done wif all these stuff;the fights n all..dat is sooo hgh school..i'm taking the highway.let it be.just do wut u wanna do.if u need me,i'll still be here..if u dun,its ok..

same goes to HIM,if u x prasan lah kn,things btween us da laen da rite now.i noe u're bz wif ur work n all...but hey,its ok..i'm gonna pass this phase..frenz come n go rite..xpe2..i dun mind..i'm rdy to build my new life even if i hav to erase all those memories.its ok.its hard but i'll do it if i hv to..i think dats it for now kot..the pain da dtg blk.siot jerh..l8er~

smother me

Used - Smother Me lyrics

The Used Smother Me 

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
And let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
My days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own (leaves me all alone)
Hold me too tight stay by my side
And let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time(all the time)

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
My days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?(4X- smother me)

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
And how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
So Baby I’m, Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?(don’t let me be alone)

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?(3X smother me)
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
the one who calls you baby.



Lyrics | Used lyrics - Smother Me lyrics

ouh i love diz song!!x bes sgt but the words r sooo deep!sumpah wey..rse cm nak nnges pon ade..

march12 2009

Cmonlaa.u guyz noe wut day it is rite??fers of all,congrats to those who achieved tremendous results.u guyz did a very gud job.to gladiators~i'm proud lah wey.(dgn muke x malu nye,tp btolla.i'm proud).gladys rise again.haha.wtv.





6.40 am,i woke up for subuh.then i got a msg from zakiah bout our overall results.i did not really believe in it at fers.i showed it to my mum,she said"dun put ur hope too high".i was like....ouwkaayyy..i wasnt pon.at all but when she said like dat...huh,cm bg sign jerh.ok2.it turned out she really did checked my result earlier..around 7.30 am,she texted me.she asked whether i wanna noe my result or not..well,i said no.i wanna go n find out myself.then i got up n siap2 ah..around 9 cmtu strt gerak kuar from umah with bju kurung n heels-wtf?? g la naek erl to bndr tsk sltn.waited for chzk tp she was late plak.then suddenly i terpikir.cnfirmlah my result horror ni.y dun i just ask my mum now so dat i wont breakdown kt coll nnti.so i txted her.asked bout my rsult lah.then she called.dye tny sure ke nk taw?i ckpla yes i wanna noe.then dye ckp,x pyhla.u tgk sndri nnti.oookaaay!cnfirm rsult horror!ouff..i hung up.chzk still x smpai.so i gerak ngn dya,nana,ainur,diyana,hana.in the kmuter,bley lak wat kecoh.LOL.tkcians mmg x ley get tgther lah.cnfirm kecoh!its the truth!hehs.then ble smpai srmban,nmpak lak paah,babe ngn ain.LOL.in the same train but laen2 gerabak-izit?..hopped on a cab n g coll.when we arrived,rsult x kuar lagi.rmaii gak yg turned up.ouhkaayy.pretty scary.around 11.45,sume msok hall.en anuar announce overall rsult.whoaa!bes lah tyme tu.i'm hepi for my btch.then its time.huhuhu.x ley bla dow my clss tchers.tyme nk bg rsult tu,both wat muke xcited n ckp cngrts.i was like,eh2,bia btol dorang ni?tpu la kn tyme if i say x xcited.durh!!dorang r wt muke cmtu.skali tgk...ahaa...stop wtv u r thinking-i wont tell u my rsult.haha.then lpak kt kntin dgn deq,cikin n ewa..borak2..then my mum suro call my dad.uhuh.call jela.fuuhh!!pedih siott dgr dye ckp!!!l8er,key dtg.ajak blk ngn dye.ikot jelah.jmpe2 sume org..then gerak g almnda...





okayh,diz part best.hahaha.dgn x sedar diri rsult horror nye,we headed to scret recipe sbb kami LAPAR.LOL.i ordered lasagna n frosty lemon tea.key pon order air same tp dye nye food xtra sket.hahaha.key kebulur!while waiting,ktorng borak2.n then the waiter dtg n bg keropok.we were like...wut??kite order ke?hahahaha!!gle x ley bla dowh!skali tgk org kt luar pn ade gk.hihihi.n then the waiter tuh ble da bg our meal,bley lak nk terjtuh sbb terkena kerusi!dammit!aku x tahan nk gelak doww tyme tu!!adoiii.den melantaklah smpai x ingat dunie..around 6 cmtu gerak g bus stop tggu bus..lame tol bus nk dtg.skt ati jer.n then hujan plak..yeah,wut a day huh?i had no choice,call my cuzin to pick us up.then anta key g sntral.otw bck,abg chik said..mummy ko blk2 je mrh2 doww...okay....ak da strt nk nnges da dat tyme.





smpai umah,i had a long hot shower..pnat lah wey.solat,bce yassin jp.dhla ngntok.then i slept jup.8.30,hzq knocked on my door.ngn muke mamai nye,i opened the door.gr8,mummy pggl aku..ok2.g dok kt dye..i thot..huh,x yh tawla.she was like a totally diff person td.it hurts really2 bad weh..from the look of her eyes,she's definitely embarassed of me.okay,u hv the rite to b upset but criuzly,do u hv to say those things to me??at diz very moment??i nedded my mum the most to support..help me to get thru diz,guide me..n yet..u just...if it was abah,i can terime lah bcoz dye mmg cmtu.but its u.bkn nk ckp apela,abg got worst than me b4,u x mrh cmni pon?y???or do u really hate me dat much???!sumpah it hurts..still does..key;btolla.gelak cm org ile ptg td,mlm ak nnges non-stop.truth be told,i deserve diz.i noe.my fault,org laen x slh pon.i noe dat.but rlly,i need my fmly n frenz to support me..cuz i completely lost rite now..idk,idk,idk..nk rase cm loser pon,x worth it gk.i need a person to tell me dat evrything's gonna be alryte..dat i can make them proud..pull me bck to the ground...

high on caffeine

When i laugh...

HE will say dat he loves to hear me laughing n laugh wif me

When i cry...

HE will wipe away my tears n pull me in his arm n say"eyeliner u da ruined.mata u cm hantu.LOL"

When i'm cold...

HE will take of his jacket n put it on me

When we went for a movie...

HE will order popcorn n mineral water just like the way i like it

When one of my fav songs is on the radio...

HE will call me on the fon n we'll listen to it together

When he wants to take me out..

HE will tell my parents first

When i'm running out of credit...

HE will call me

When i'm bored...

HE will call me just to say that he loves me

When we spend time together...

HE will hand over his phone to me

When it is my birthday...

HE will burn a cd dat has all of our songs in it as my bday gift

When i finished working...

HE will wait outside for me

if he sings

HE will write a song about us

if he plays football

HE will bring me along in every match

if he wants to say goodbye

HE will kiss me on the forehead

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HE will try to get to know all of my friends

HE will keep in touch with my brothers

HE will let me hangout with his siblings

HE will let me in all the way thru

HE will wake me up in the morning for subuh

HE will order french chicken for me if we eat at burger king

HE will bring me to kinokuniya if we go to klcc

HE will make an album of our pics

HE will take me for horse riding;wee~

hahaha...it's 3 am in the morning..nilah akibatnye terlbey caffeine,terhasillah crap di atas..no2.its not a crap actually.its true.but HE x wujud..yet.hope dat i'll meet HIM one day..bodo laa...i cant sleep!otak pon da jammed rite now..spm result da nak kua..now,truth be told,i'm not really scared.in fact,i'm not feeling anything..huh??y?idk..but better diz way.pnat otak cuak2 neh.

ok dats all i guess..no idea da.taa~

THEM <33

Salam to all..diz post is made for those who stood by me thru thick n thin.a way for me to say thanks n how much i appreci8 u guys in my lyfe.i cant say diz evryday but i need u guys to noe.so here goes~

AYEN;my bro.he annoyed me like hell!-dats wut brothers do ryte?LOL.but he's the one dat alwez got my bck wherever i'm in trouble.well,he's not the best brother in the world BUT he is my bro!dats enuff for me.cudnt ask for more.we've been thru a lot kn??esp when facing mummy n abah when either one of us pissed em off.haha.dude,i heart u~

ANEQ;luv her till my very last breath.start rpt ngn dye tyme f2..in f3,we had some issues rite?but we made it thru.deskie dye tyme f4..ade issue jgak on dat part.LOL.we survived thru the screamings,glarings,tears n all..thnk God x de bitch slap larh.rmmber dat nyte?kt koridor klas 5c?i almost throw the bracelet u gave me for my bday tp nsb baek key ade kt c2.LOL.we've been thru a lot but dat wut makes us NOW.i think evry year kite ade prob kn??when i think bck,funny la weh.hahaha.aku ingat agi dya salu kene kan aku ngn ko en?bodo jerh.thnks for alwez been there for me.

KEY;ahaha..you;eye cntct?hw cn i 4get dat?thnx for being such a wnderful fren to me.my scret keeper..best deskie!cherish year 06.a wnderful year..rmmber my pncil box??name dye 'jadmie'.wth??LOL.jim+admie.we went thru pmr tgether.last min nye pulun.hahaha.ingat lg tyme f4,we had a fight.mlm BADA.how cn i 4get dat?sume psl misunderstanding.bodo btol.then balek dorm,i threw away mr I n our pic dat u gave me for my bday.wut is wrong wif me?nk buang sume bday gifts ke?hahaha.video making ngn chatt.kene naek stage lak pn tengku suro.escape class knon nk wat vdeo.hahaha.den tyme f5,x same class.but we managed to stay close.a lot of things dat we shared.den so-called-bday party ak last yer.all the drama..tepi surau.mghrib tah ke mane2 tah.adoii!anjal sejarah kt prefects room.ko wat ak gelak cm org gile!seb baek pn yusma.hahaha.x wat pon essay-ko nye ilang plak.hahaha.dude,i can go on n on bout us.criuzly.byk gile bnde.wtv it is;THANX LOVE.

CHATT;chatey neh,rpt ngn dye tyme f3.same wktu ngn key,rose n ry.mkn2 maggi kt wakaf.rmmber ko kne tpu ngn ry n rose bowt the necklace??hahaha.siot jerh.went thru pmr tgther gak.skali naek f4,we were in diff class.down hell tyme tu!ko sorang je tercampak kt class laen.LOL.bwat vdeo same2 jgak.ko n key gado-ak tersekat tgh2.whoaaa!saket dowh tyme tu.hahaha.n den tyme basket,coincidently me,u n key were wearing the same jersey number-10.x ley bla dowh dat tyme!!ow yeah lupe,ko anak en.haizul.hahaha.chatey-lolipop.da sinonim.haha.then tyme f5,u have issue ngn HIM-ala u noe lah who.ak x nk tules kt cni.brpe lame ah korang cpl?den gado je dtg kt aku.hahaha.i dun mind pon.x pe2.f5,we do faced some probs.but we went thru it.n when school was over,kte g gig kt mlake.adoii!x ley bla doww.aku still jmpe bju ko kt shopping mall taw.LOL.<3

RY;my deskie yg plg baek!!-key pon x baek mne actually-u were alwez there for me..i ingat lg tyme f3,u salu kne mrh ngn pn juhani kn?hehe.we spent tyme tgther.then ingt x u,me n nana hngout kt midval.ngn ammr,n those 2 jerks.stupid!!tyme f3,we were dormmates.we had some issues dat year.haha.tuka2 bed lah ape lah..LOL.den kte kua lagi,i teman u jmpe fido.LOL.pe cte dye skrg ea?...those days~n ow yeah,luqman!!we went to watch sepi ryte??hahaha.dpt seats dpn tuh.n then ingat lagi kte rmai2 clbr8 bday u,chatt n pauww kt blkg mmr.BLAST!heh,u thot i mrh kt u kn dat tyme?u with ur bju kurung.hahaha.wut a day!kt class plak,evrytyme i offer food msty u ckp''nanti i amek".haha.durh!i noe u wont.dats y i ltak bwh ur desk tros.hee~ry,i luv u so much.tq fr everything u've done.

ROSE;indiemate!LOL.miss spendin tyme with u gurl..idk y but evrytyme ingt ko,msty ingt ikan keli doww!hahaha.was it f3 or f4 yg evrytyme recess we ate ikan keli??gile tol dat tyme!

naek f4,dats when amer came into the picture.it went perfect at fers,then evrything strted to rumble.hw cn i 4get?hahaha.lwk la wehh.u n "afiq"??LOL.roseaina toye!!naek f5 plak,ouff!clear view-tepi surau..hurmmm..nvm2.we learned a lot from wut hppened.ahaaa,ko gle pink!n barbie.aduh,x ley bla la ko neh.hahaha.ingt agi tyme g klcc for career day,u n ry amek gmba with the barbie nye poster tu kn??hahaha.n diz;u,me,ry n key g putra!!damn!miss gle those moments.stayed up the whole nyte.bley lak kene kejar n halau ngn polis sbb lpak kt bridge tuh.den kt mcd,sume org wt bnde yg embarassing kn??LOL.ak lak stuck ngn cikai dlm kete.dush2!......

SHUK;i noe i can depend on u the whole tyme.thnks for evrything.thnks for alwez taking care of me.kte g tournament silat tgther.toyolmate!!!u,me,chalym n nik!n den there was shudeq-bigfoot.adoyy!n ayim-stitch ko.tyme f4,lari the whole blok f cuz ak smbunyikan stitch ko.LOL.n then there were "abg" ko,n tah pape name jepun ko bg tah kt ckgu silat.haha.f5,blast!u were there for me the whole tyme..rmmber our song?let me take u there?hehe.n i can nvr forget tyme ko jage ak gstrik horror tuh.u n chalym were in my room.n those scary things hppened.nvm,bia kte 3 je taw wut hppen kn?hehe..thnx buddy...i owe u big tyme.

CHALYM;dorm8 tyme f1.hahaha.weh,ko ingat x ak n dibot pranked u bowt the sa note??n u really caye dat thing.siap bg choc lagi tuh!!hahaha!klaka la weh!n then ak tumpang bed ko n pauww evrynite cuz i scared tdo bed sndri-ade beddie x gune tyme tu.LOL.n tyme f2,we pretty much wat hal sndri je kn?x pe2.f3 dok 1 blok.dorm sblah2.lpak2 tgether lah gak.n f4,haha.miss bakaw!!!gle la wey...gmpak tol dok bakaw tyme tu.u thot me a lot of things chal.thnx..ko n shuk pn same.ske bebel kt aku bout mkn.hahaha.ok2 shoot me now.i noe it was my fault.hihi.i hope u will nvr give up in pursuing ur dreams just like u used to tell me dulu2,k?i noe u can.

FAHMI;known u the longest..since stndrd 3.we gado a lot tyme skola dulu.dude,normalla tu kn?n skali turned out our dad knows each other heh ank md noor?LOL.u r the sweetest guy i've ever met(huh,yeke?)..haha..rmmber x,i lied to u n apiss bowt me coming bck to u guys??LOL.x ley bla siot!!but ak x smpai aty nk tpu ko lame2.hehe.den kenekan apis.dush,x ley bla..we got closed,jd lak rumours.ngek tol!haha..n den u helped me tyme ade prob ngn fi3.awww,thnks syg!!but now??idk,idk,idk..things are not lyke it used to be...nvm.i still care n love u~

HERRY;teman bergosip aku.hahaha..dulu ko salu cte2 psl ko n...u noe lah who.n i tried my very best to help u guys.tp last2 it ended jgak.xpe2.nothing last forevr kn?n salu chat kt ym.hehe.declare bestie ea?haha.i gave a wallet for ur bday.ko gune smpan suet korang nye clothing line..ouh,then ade 1 conflict lak..hurmm..no comment bout dat.hope u guys worked it out k?i cn never lie to u kn bout mood aku??hahaha.thnx2

KIMIE;u r the person who changed a big part of my lyfe.funny thing is dulu tyme skola renda we never spoke to each other kn?we barely know each other..n now,heh..kite je phm kn??u r the most complicated of all my frens ynoe??u r the fers guy yg saw me crying in front of u..heh,hw cn i 4get dat day??n ouh yeah,in the monorail rmmber??hahaha..klaka laa..dude,i love u n dun u worry,wut u imagined the other day,it wont hppen...i'll b here as long as u need me..

AIMAN;chipsmore!!kjap ade kjap x de.but ynoe y u r in diz list??it is becos i APPRECI8 u..how cn i 4get wut u've done for me when i had a fight with my parents??i cn nvr 4get dat..thnk u,thnk u..n ouh yeah,i'm still waiting for ko nye demo lah sengal!!!i'll be waiting for u dear~

BAGAK;haha.u must be wondering y ur name is here kn?heh,u helped me a lot la weh.i cn never 4get dat.u r a gud listener.n i'm sori dat things doesnt worked out for u.just be patient.yeah,lyfe is unfair but He is fair to all of his servants..just pray~

AMER;u r such a pain in the ass!!huhu..but i put u here bcoz wut u did for rose..u make her happy.so i wanna thank u for dat..truth be told u r a gud fren..

so dats it for now.to those yg not in the list,i luv u guys jgak lah.dun wrry!hahaha...

p/s:I LOVE YOU

To begin with...

Salam frenz n foes..so diz is my fers post..wait;let me laugh my ass off fers.hahaha.it took me a while to finally decided dat having a blog may ease my mind a bit i guess..LOL..so,i've been doing countdown to march 12th-a date dat has been in everybody's head-i mean to fivers 08 lah.SPM result.omg,omg,omg..i'm scared to death!!i knew i screwed up BIG tyme during the exam-its not a joke-...i keep on telling myself dat whatever hppens dat day,it is NOT the end of the world for me;yeah technically its true BUT how can i get it off my head so easy?wtv it is,i think i deserved larh pape pon based on my oh-so-called-effort.

oh,enuff bowt SPM.i passed my drvng test yesterday.LOL.at last!!all i can say is,yesterday's test was not the fers tyme.so korang phm2 sndri la k?but what i wanna tell u guys now is bout how lucky i am smlm..my tester tersgt2 lah baek!!God bless u sir!well,he's serious..x wat jokes or anything but dye mmg baek.no doubt.there was diz one part where i ALWEZ stuck during test-ONLY(i noe;i'm pathetic!).so ble almost smpai kat c2,there was a car too kat situ-n stuck jgak like i did-so my jpj nih ckp"potong je kete tuh"...i was like.."oh,ok2"..when i was about to stop the car to do the freaking aturan bukit wtv tuh,he said"x pyh2.jln je tros"..whoaaa!!!!i stopped breathing for a moment-gle shocked weyh!!but hey,am i stupid enuff to blow dat chance?of course lah x!then evrything went perfectly fine..ALHAMDULILLAH.thnk u GOd;thnk u...after dat,i decided;its payback tyme!hahaha..so i texted key..hehehe..key;ynoe wut hppen kn??when u called,i laughed my butt off fers b4 i answered..smpai HE-u noe who-ckp aku da sewel..i guess so!dats for messing wif me a day b4 when i was sleeping!LOL.no offense larh dear..hehehe..then after evrything da sttled,i went home..terbongkang atas bed for a few hours-pnat dowh!then ptg tuh mummy ajak tgk the pidato thingy at picc but i was too exhausted so i didn't go..at nite,abah suro tgk dat competition..there was diz contestant from china-pe tah name dye-she was really good!!she spoke fluently,well,it supposed to b dat way la kn?but my point is,she brought up some matter dat really got me thinking..i doubt dat our own malay generation;teens to b specificla..noe bout some of her points..she's really good..it occured to me if foreigners lyke her noes a lot about m'sia,we malaysian shud b ashamed of ourselves..look at current politics n issues ryte now..wth??i think now,evrything is about politics..wake up larh org melayu!gile kuase tol..x sedar tuh org laen tgh gelak kt org melayu ryte now..

b4 i stop writing,diz is a special dedication to my oh-so-called-bestie;dude,where r u??wut hppened to us??u dunno wut i went thru n i needed u the most.but u weren't there!!y??r u trying to avoid me??if u r,just say the word n i'll leave..i dun need ppl who dun need me..hear diz;i DO love u n i DO care bout u..but i guess it's never enuff for u..