Monday, April 4, 2011

I THINK I MAYBE...LIKE YOU

Ahahaha hello people!
it's been a while tak update blog.
not really into blogspot these days.ceh2.
anyway,how y'all doing?
i'm having my finals in about 2 weeks time.
gotta gear up.
ouhhh about the title?
yeahhh.i think i'm starting to like YOU..
damn it,damn YOU!
haishhh
-.-

Sunday, February 13, 2011

ok?

has been a while since i last updated my blog.
not much has happened i guess.
how are you fellow readers?
hope you're doing fine.
fine?is 'fine' a feeling??
i've always wondering bout that.
anyhow,my mum was admitted last night.her condition so far is still the same.
pls pray for her.she's suffering.
and ouh,me and my bestie?
yeah we're fine.
i think?...
things are not the same anymore.
sometimes i wonder whether i made the right decision to have him back.
kadang2 rasa mcm it's the wrong the decision.
sometimes not.
idk.
it's kinda sad though.but that's okay.
i'm getting over it.life doesn't stop here just because someone is not the same anymore.
let it be.

as for now,i'm having a great time with my friends,lovely biatches.
LOL.
it has been great.been through some interesting experience which i can't tell here*wink wink
so i think that's it for now.gotta scoot!test tomorrow.
ciao

Friday, January 28, 2011

getaway

I'm off to Jakarta for a few days.
hope to get some peace in mind and a great time.
i'll update soon.
goodbye fellow readers!

Friday, January 21, 2011

NUMB

It has been 11 days i'm living my life without you.
a lot had happened.
and most of the time,i need you the most.
but i can't find myself to go and find you like i used to do.
i was mad.
i was upset.
i was angry.
i was hurt really bad.
but now,i think i have to try and let this one go.
like i always do.
i have to fix myself.
i have to TRY and forgive you.
some ask me to go and get you back.
some ask me to stay away.
but what i want?
idk.
exhausted mcm ni.
but i can barely 'move' da.
if things were meant to end,how i wish we could end things the right way.
but you can't find it in yourself to be fair to me.
i wanted to see you for the last time.
i wanted to hear your voice for the last time.
i wanted to salam you for the very last time.
but i don't have that chance.
it is the most terrible goodbye.
i am all alone now.
yes Allah is with me.
but that's it.
while the others said they are here for me,those are just words.
it can never be the same.
they don't know how i feel.
i want to fix things.
but idk how.
maybe i should just leave it this way..

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

bla bla bla

I NEED MY BEST FRIEND BACK!
:'(

bla bla bla

I NEED MY BEST FRIEND BACK!
:'(

Sunday, January 16, 2011

LONG MISERABLE DAY

OMG
I AM SOO TIRED RIGHT NOW.
WHY?
BECAUSE TODAY,I'VE BEEN IN AN ACCIDENT.
THANK GOD NO ONE GOT HURT.
BUT THE CAR WRECKED.
AND I'M THE ONE BEHIND THE WHEEL.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON MY MIND THAT TIME.
SGT PENAT RIGHT NOW.
I CALLED MANY PEOPLE TADI FOR HELP.
THANK YOU FRIENDS.
BUT THEN AGAIN,EVERYONE IS MESSED UP TODAY BECAUSE OF ME.
DAMN.
GUILTY SGT.
HAIIHHH.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

what's on my mind?

DON'T TELL ME YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL,
UNTIL YOU'VE BEEN IN THE SAME EXACT SITUATION.
I NEED TIME.
HELL A LONG TIME
TO SEAL BACK THE WOUND THAT ONCE WAS HEALED..FOR A WHILE.
whatever it is,i have to be strong.
yes,of course right now,everything seems to be so blurry.
but i know,
i'll be back on my feet.
soon.
maybe.
for now,let me be sad.
let me be mad.
let me be upset.
let me cry my heart out
let me curse
let me do stupid things.
because one day,
i am NOT gonna look back at this.
i am not gonna look back at YOU.
ohh love you,yes i still do.
xtau bila bole stop.
kau doa la aku dah x fikir pasal kau.


fuck liars
fuck broken promises
fuck false hopes


p/s:kau kejam buat aku mcm ni.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

11.1.11

THE DAY EVERYTHING ENDS.
THANK YOU SO MUCH
FOR BEING SO CRUEL.
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
THANK YOU

AND PLEASE,STOP STALKING ME.AND THIS IS MY FUCKING BLOG.
I CAN FUCKING BLOGGED ANYTHING I WANT.
IDK WHAT I DID BEFORE TO DESERVE THIS.
2ND TIME KENA MACAM NI.
JINX KOT.

Monday, January 10, 2011

the waiting is excruciating

IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO RIGHT NOW
PENAT LAA.
PENAT KENA IGNORE LIKE THIS.
IT'S LIKE EVERYTHING I DO FALL INTO WRONG PLACES.
DON'T GIVE UP ON ME JUST YET LA.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

selfish act??

Yes,i am happy at the moment.
But then again,i couldn't help but knowing that,someone got hurt over my happiness.
am i selfish??
i don't know.
i don't know what to do.
to that person,idk if you're going to read this.
But please know that i never meant this to happen.
i never thought it will ended up like this.
and i definitely did not mean to hurt you.
and for that,i am truly sorry.from the bottom of my heart.
i truly am.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

spreading the happiness

I had the sweetest ending of 2010
and greatest beginning of 2011
I couldn't ask for more.
Thank You Allah,for blessing me with happiness.
I've been longing for this moment for quite a while.
and now finally,yes.

Welcome 2011.