i'm suck with goodbyes

FAREWELL MY DEAR BESTFRIEND.

I FINALLY FOUND THE COURAGE TO LET YOU GO.

IF THAT DAY EVER COMES,I'LL BE THERE AGAIN.

TAKE CARE.

I'VE DONE EVERYTHING THAT I CAN.

NOW,WE'LL JUST LET TIME TELLS.

I LOVE YOU

LOVE YOU MAF.

Taking Chances

In life,you get to choose.

To get in,or get out..

To accept,or decline..

To take,or leave..

To live,or die..

To love,or hate..

It's our life.We get to choose.But how can we know,that our choice,is the best for us?

Well,i guess you can never know until you take chances.

Life is complicated.But you also get to choose,either to make it more complicated,

or try and make it simpler.

I watched Grey's Anatomy just now.its kinda wake up call for me.

I have to give everything i could.so that in the end of the day,when i'm about to die,i will have no regrets.No regrets.No questions of what could've been.

I hope i can die peacefully,InsyaAllah..amin-

THE STORY

HELLO2.you wanna know the truth?

http://hestory.wordpress.com/2010/12/05/the-story

p/s:its 3405 words

craving and pms

NAK COOKIES!TOLONGLAH!CRAVING NIII.:(

This is what happens when you're having your pms.*sigh

ohh,speaking of pms,i made some research*ceh macam x pernah blaja je.

Risk factors

• High caffeine intake^[4]
• Stress may precipitate condition
• Increasing age
• History of depression
• Family history
• Dietary factors^[6] (Low levels of certain vitamins and minerals, particularly magnesium, manganese, and vitamin E) and also Vitamin D

no wonder la i got pms and muscle cramps and stuff.high caffeine intake.

hmm like almost everyday i had caffeine.but just a glass per day.

is that considered HIGH??

shocked state

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

25 november 2011 :)

hahaha bangang

karaoke time!

us:)

and anis the photographer

syg sgt korang!and not to forget my bestie,aneq:')

such a long and tiresome day,but had lotssa fun!so here are details:

11.30am-gerak from putra

12++ pm:sampai pavi.pusing2.ate at food court

2.15pm:went for movie(me,chechi,nad,chin,cha and zai):UNSTOPPABLE

6pm:karaoke time!

9pm:balik putra,sent shaza home

11pm:makan dekat domain(me,chechi,izzah,aiman and cha)

12.30am:went back home

i was having a lot fun until the point where i had food poisoning!damn that asam laksa!i will never eat those laksa again.*sigh.worst part,it ruined my movie.i had to go out like 3 times i think and went to the toilet.siot gila ouh.i VOMIT AND MY WHOLE BODY WAS TREMBLING.well,u guys know how it feels kan bila kena food poisoning.damn.then habis movie,kene bahan dgn zai.hahah siot sangat tuu!and then,we went karaoke.well,macha and aiman have great voices.best lah.sort of like the entertainment for the day.hahah.all in all,i had great time with my darlings.SHAZA,ANIS,IZZAH,ATEN,NAD,CHECHI,HUHA,CHIN,AIMAN,MACHA AND ZAI,THAnK YOU FOR THE FUN!sayang korang especially my babes!

Avenged Sevenfold - So Far Away

This song is written by my sweetheart;p BRIAN SYNYSTER GATES.Dedicated to their late drummer,JIMMY 'THE REV' SULLIVAN.Its epic.i can almost feel how they felt when they lost someone important in their lives.Hope u guys enjoy this as much as i did.;')

sugar rush!weee

HAHAHA.MALAM NI JADI GILA SIKIT.

XTAU KENAPA.MAYBE TOO MUCH SUGAR CONSUMED?

idk.

HEHE TAPI BEST OUH.RASE MCM HAPPY SAJE.

NO DONT GET ME WRONG.

I DONT TAKE DRUGS IN CASE YOU'RE WONDERING.

WANI BAIIKKK.;P

KAN BEST KAN KALAU SELALU HAPPY2 CAMNI.HEE~

AND TO MY SWEET DARLINGS,IF I EVER BEING MOODY KE APE,SUAP JE

ANYTHING SUGARY.NANTI WANI JD GILE CMNI.

TAPI,U GUYS LA KENE LAYAN.TAU2?

KISS SIKIT?MUAHHH!

what should i do?

WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH THIS CERTAIN PEOPLE WHO ANNOYS ME?

Its like,you are...ermm...'merimaskan'?-perhaps.

maybe you cared for me too much,that lama2 jadi kinda annoying.

and please,you have your own life and responsibilities.mend your life first.

deal with your own problems okay?

and and,dengar lah opinion orang.you ask for people's thoughts,and when they gave it to you,you simply judging how they live their life.that isn't the proper way to react lah.

if you think you cant accept other people's opinion,then dont ask for it in the 1st place la.

honestly,i think i am maturer than you are despite our age differences are quite huge.*shame on you.haihhh

WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH THE 'BANGANG' ADMINISTRATORS AT FSKM?????

Yg ni memang buat aku sakit hati.you guys wants us to represent ourselves in the best possible way right?you guys wants us to portray the real image of university students am i right?

BUT,you guys have to set a good example to us lahh.when you want to punish those who break the rules,fine.but do it fairly la.terang2 my situation is the same with that girl,and yet i'm the only one who was penalized??WHAT THE FUCK DOUCHE??!!!i waited for like 3 freaking hours,without a proper sleep,and suddenly i have to pay these bastards 50 bucks?!

walaweyh!sumpah bangang la.i really2 dont want my parents to get involve with this matter but seems like u guys dont really know how to do ur job well.fuck yew!

WHAT SHOULD I DO THIS HOLIDAY??

Online,tido,lepak2 sampai lebam!!!LOL

exam is over babeyhhhh!

SALUTE!!

ITS OVER!

relieved gila weh!

hahaha.so far,i think kantoi maybe 2 papers kot.*sigh

but what to do,done already.

ahhaa ok.peeps,i want this.

POLAROID.

yes.yes.yes.

i know the trend nowadays are nikon,dslr,bla3.

but no.

i want this.

its very...hmm i cant put into words.

hahaha.

but seriously.i need to get my hands on this babe.

style kot.hehehe.

we'll see la how.*fingers crossed

tell me a suitable title for this post

"SORRY FOR EVERYTHING"

hmm x susah kan nak ckp camtu?add up with sincerity,a boiling temperature pun bole cool down.

and i'm sorry too.

maybe i overreacted?idk.

tp tulah apa yg aku rasa.

and u cannot blame me.

and thank you for today.

i know you are still you.

please..

i know ppl change.but i hope its not u,

please sgt.

because i'm being reasonable,and i dont wanna fight.

so i let it go.like i used to do.

but this heart is still aching.

so untuk exam pula,2 more papers to go then i'm done!

ya Allah x sabar nye!!heeee~

c++ da lepas.lega sikit kepala.

hmmm pray for my success friends.

and yeah,i've activated my fb back for some reasons.

saya penat being miserable

another one

fuck yeww!it matters lah bongok!
hah nah!khas untuk kau.huhu.yes,u are being such an asshole.why?

how stupid i am for thinking that u still care for me when u obviously dont.

haiihh sedih2.xperlulah kot nak change to this attitude kan?u said u'll never leave me?

BULLSHIT SUNGGUH LAH KAN?

ahhaa xpelah.

9th november.if u still act this way,I'M GONE FROM UR LIFE OKAY?

esok paper account.tp disebabkan ade breakdown td,cm x focus sgt wat revision tadi.haihh bila lah nak score for exam ni?

dah x nampak bayang2 swift da ni.:(

yea,who knew??

YOU TOOK MY HAND

YOU SHOWED ME HOW

YOU PROMISE ME

YOU'D BE AROUND

UH-HUH

THAT'S RIGHT

I TOOK YOUR WORDS

AND I BELIEVED

IN EVERYTHING U SAID TO ME

UH-HUH THAT'S RIGHT

WHEN SOMEONE SAID 3 YEARS FROM NOW

YOU'D BE LONG GONE

I'D STAND UP AND PUNCH 'EM OUT

COZ THEY'RE ALL WRONG

I KNEW BETTER

COZ YOU SAID FOREVER AND EVER

WHO KNEW

REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE SUCH FOOLS

AND SO CONVINCED

AND JUST TOO COOL

NO NO

I WISH I COULD TOUCH YOU AGAIN

I WISH I COULD STILL CALL U FRIEND

I'D GIVE ANYTHING

WHEN SOMEONE SAID COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS NOW

FOR THEY LONG GONE

I GUESS I JUST DIDN'T KNOW HOW

I WAS ALL WRONG

THEY KNEW BETTER

STILL U SAID FOREVER

AND EVER,WHO KNEW

I KEEP U LOCKED IN MY HEAD

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

N I WONT FORGET U MY FRIEND

WHAT HAPPENED

THAT LAST KISS

I'LL CHERISH

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

AND TIME MAKES IT HARDER

I WISH I COULD REMEMBER

BUT I KEEP YOUR MEMORY

YOU VISIT ME IN MY SLEEP

MY DARLING,WHO KNEW??

A VERY MEANINGFUL SONG TO ME~

i wish you could really see what i'm trying to tell u here.

p/s:ily and imy

have a kit kat:)

one down,5 more to go.

today,i sat for my titas exam.

alhamdulillah,it went well.i just hope i can get pretty decent result.hee

tomorrow,i'll be having maths logic exam.

hhuh,i still cant find the logic of studying this subject.

but i gotta sit for it somehow.

so now i'm taking a break.

kinda exhausted.

i've deactivated my fb account for a while.

maybe when i'm done with my finals,then only i'll activate it back.

too much is happening right now.

and some of the things that i just cant take it.

so i'll avoid it as long as i can.

COUNTING DAYS TO 9TH OF NOVEMBER 2010~

not so nice la kan?

very very not nice.
you are mean.
you are so mean.
how could u do this to me?
it hurts.
really2 bad.
and now,i just cant go on with this.
i'm done.
have a happy life.
just dont get hurt in the end.

short post

I LOVE YOU

FULLSTOP.

p/s:agak stress with studies.but i'll be fine.

APE2 PUN BOLEH

SEMUA ORANG PERASAN.

TERMASUKLAH KAWAN2 KAU

TP KAU JE X PERASAN2 LAGI.

KE KAU BUAT2 X PERASAN?

NAK KATE BODOH,MMG X BODOH.

NAK KATE LAMPI,PUN TIDAK.

HABIS NAK PANGGIL APE EH???

DAN KEPADA SESIAPA YG TERASE,XYAH NAK STALK AKU SGT LAA.

ADD KAT FB PUN BOLE.AKU APPROVE JE.

BUKAN AKU XKNAL KAU-.-

YEAH,POST BERBAHASA MELAYU-APE MAKSUDNYA?AKU BOLE JADI GILE SKRG NI.

4 TEST & ASSIGNMENTS BERLONGGOK.SUME NAK SETTLE DLM MINGGU NI.TLG LA HABIS CEPAT..

don't read if you don't care

its 1 a.m in the morning..
i'm having difficulties to sleep lately..
idk why.if i gone to bed around 1 am,most probably i'll end up SLEEPING at 3 am or 4.then i had to wake up for my subuh.how many hours of sleep did i get?*sigh
and this week,i've been crying quite a lot actually.i put on a fake smile every now and then.
the person who used to make me laugh when i'm in the worst condition,is the one who put me through the most painful situation.and worst,that person doesn't know it.
there is nothing much i can do.i'll just let time tell and heals.and i know its gonna be damn loong.
but honey for now,i just don't feel like seeing you.it hurts you know??
and i think you can go on without me right?in fact you better off without me.its me who cant go on without you.but hey,i gotta give everything a try right?
i hope you're happy.i hope you're doing just fine.i hope you're not sick.i hope everything is okay at your home.
i just cannot get distracted with these stuff.i'm having my finals in 2 weeks time.if all i do is crying over something that you did,when can i find the time for myself to focus on my studies?
i pray to Him that He'll help through this.give me strength.pls.i need to be strong like i used to be.
i just need at least 1 person to tell me that i'm strong.that they believe in me...

to mummy and abah,have a safe trip to the Holy land.may everything goes well and smoothly.i'll keep praying for the safety for both you.


p/s:i love you,my stranger bestfriend.

the silent treatment

I'm giving you the silent treatment.i'm giving you the space you want.i'm going to learn how to go by days without needing to get in touch via anything.i'm going to live my life as it is.but ,remember,

i ain't made out of stone no matter what you think

the confession

It has been a while since the last post.
ok so the title says it all.
the confession.
it all starts on last thursday i think.
i fell asleep in the evening.and around 6.30 i think,
alip called me.he said kamal n bani is coming and they
asked me to gout for a movie.
at first i was kinda hesitated because the next day,i still have my classes.
but then,i really need a night out.so i asked aneq to come along.
then we went to sunway and watched wall street.
but heck i dont understand what the story is about.lol.
then afterwards,we lepak at ss7.yeah i should've known that they
would stay and teman us till the morning.thank you guys.
and so that night we had this really deep conversation.
LOVE.
yeah the L word.and somehow they persuaded me to confess something
that i've been trying really hard to hide.
especially to them.
but anyhoo,i took the risk and trust 'em.
so i told them the truth.
but not much of elaboration.haha enough la with the confession kan?
no need to know any further.and so the 3 of them had known the truth.
so i hope for 2 things right now;
i hope they wont tell anyone esp. that person in particular.
and i hope that the next time i meet them,i wont be awkward.
its kinda relieved u know when u finally tell someone outside you know?

questionsss

This post is going to be quite merepek.since idk what else to do.haha-.-

just watched Vdays td for the 2nd time.i'm bored.n suddenly i was thinking..

What does being in a relationship REALLY means??

izit being with someone dat u've known in ur almost entire life,

or izit being with someone that u just met,n take the liberty of time to get to know ur partner?

what izit actually?

and i am definitely not talking about marriage lahh.

i'm refering to this 'couple' or 'dating' thingy.

what izit really about?

so,anyone who's reading this,y dun u drop ur opinion.

i would really love to know what u guys think.

ok,next question.

why does most guys;i didnt say all,

lagi pentingkan their ego or pride wtv rather than their own feelings?

u see,i have many guy friends.n most of them have this same attitude.

ok maybe they were born this way?

but that is just a lame excuse.

for instance,the guys who r in a relationship.

there are some of my frenz,who has a gf,

are afraid to express their feelings publicly i.e fb

afraid of what?of getting bashed by their buddies.

there is really nothing wrong rite to just express ur feelings.

and here's another thing,there are some guys which has a really high level

of ego,can't even say SORRY?

well,that is too much ynoe.they are too proud of themselves that

they cnt even see their own faults,admit it n apologize.

now here's smthng personal.i just experienced it yesterday.

when dat one person,who i thought out of all ppl,

shud know me better,totally ignored me when he just absolutely

ruined my night.not a single sorry,heck he didnt even bother to talk to me.

i had made myself very clear last nite dat i was upset with him,

but still no response.till today.

dont u hv the courtesy to say sorry at all??

cmon r u afraid of being vulnerable?

that is totally bullshit.

you know that u dont hv to pretend anything when u r with me.

so y do u hv to act this way?

u r starting to get under my skin ynoe.

please stop before it will gone any worst.

so i guess thats it for now.looking forward to read ur opinions.

smile:)

well i've been busy lately..teettt!!of course not.i'm just lazy to update my blog.LOL.
ok,so i wont be posting or blogging much about my raya celebration because it wasnt that interesting.seriously,it was very2 dull this year.idk y.but i dun rlly care either.

on the 1st raya,we were at home je.abah had to work;or attend najib's open hse for dat matter-.-

due to boredom,me,ayen,hizami n lin went to ou n wtch mvie.

haha so much for raya celebration rite?we watched resident evil in 3d.

the next day baru blk melaka.n then bla3..u know the drill.

and then we went home.

so dat is pretty much my raya so far.hahah.no cmmnt on that.n then on tuesday,me,jim n danial teman famy to go on his 1st date with noccie kt mid.it was quite funny ynoe.LOL.it went well.didnt spent too much time though bcoz i gotta be home by 7-.-

ok n then yesterday,was a rough day for me:(

i had a fight with my mum.frankly,i dun even know y she was very angry with me.*sigh.

n then belle had gone to india last nite.thnk God i got the chance to meet her b4 she go.

thnx to famy,D n apis sbb teman smlm,

n to famy,i owe u a lot.tq for everything dear.thnx for being around.

idk what i would do wo u.i sure hope u can keep ur promise.

thnx for always putting a smile on this face when i dun even want to smile.

and all these stuff that's happening rite now,i know i'm strong enuff to face it.God wont challenge us over our capabilities.n i know i'm capable of handling this..

-.-

2 posts in 1 day?wow i seriously hv nothing to do.LOL.but i really want to blog about this given that i didnt even mention bout 'this' in the previous blog.well maybe i'm just scared?idk.

ok,here goes.last nite,siv borak with me.n he asked me bout,well that particular person.*sigh.

and i just told him,we r just like what we hv always been.n siv ckp,i'm too slow.durh!wth am i supposed to do??i just couldnt risk it all.i'm not that strong i guess.he told me to 'gamble' a bit.

but i'm just too scared.then he started to tell bout his story bla bla bla.yeah i get it.u've been in the same situation.but seriously dude,u were like friends with her for just 3 years i guess.me?waaayyy longer than yours.so its different.n u're a guy.i'm not.so i've been thinking.and MAYBE,just maybe,its time for me to let him go?huhh.i know it damn well that is going to be effing hard n i probably cnt get over him at all.but i hv to try rite?(like i never did that b4=.=)

but really,i have to.bcoz it really hurts..and i hv to care less about him n try not to be too attached to him.yeah,i NEED to do that...

zzz

I LOVE SLEEPING!

why?because when i'm asleep,i dun have to think about anything.

my brain could get the rest it needs.and so does my heart-from the ache.

and when i'm asleep,i'll have the chance to dream of the impossible given how ridiculous that dream might be.i just doesnt have to think about my problems or anything.

and lately,my bedtime is the time that i look forward everyday.

so,i'm home now.for raya celebration.well,i'm not really into it.i just didnt get the vibes,yet.and after raya,about a month or so,i'll be having my finals.when i come to think of it,how time passed us so fast that we didnt even notice.or at least i didnt.there's just so much to do,so little time.but whatever it is,i'm really glad i'm home.

and now,i shall blog-just briefly-about the week i had;

30th august 2010;

• i got swollen eyelids.seriously i have no idea how i got it.the doctor said it is most prolly bcoz of allergies*even he didnt know y.got mc for a day
• missed my csc401 quiz.but lucky me,the lecturer is nice enough.
• spent merdeka nite ALONE in my room watching gg.pathetic huh?i know.even all my roomates went out dat nite-.-

31st august 2010;

• aneq came around 3pm to pick me anis up.i drove to bangi to pick up shaza n went to ukm
• met luqmal n nisa.lepak2 at her room while anis n luqmal went out to 'bandar'.LOL.we kept on changing our plans while waiting for em.sumpah lwk sgt that time.
• break fast at the cafe.a few kuih keling,cempedak goreng,lemang,drinks,and we were done.
• drove to ts.sampai sesat2 at kl.luckily,it wasnt that hard to find ts.thx for the help,D and famy.
• kene saman bcoz parked the car beside the yellow line.huh great=.=
• drove bck to s.alam n went to kamal's corner.
• somehow oddly,shaza lost 1 of her flip flops IN THE CAR!how is dat even possible?LOL.and it was viva for crying out loud!hahaha-sorry babe,da ramai pun tau;p
• shisha;)-sorry to anis too dat u got headache dat nite.wont shisha when u're around da.

1st sept 2010

• after isyak,drove to the curve to redeem out mvie tckets for step up 3d:)
• went to rasta(ohh i miss dat place) teman aneq beli handbags.such a downer bcause i'm totally broke and cnt buy any-.-
• went bck to curve for the mvie.enjoyed it.it wasnt that bad.ok la.nut the storyline is cliche.but the coreography,the best!and i love you MOOSE ALEXANDER!-reminds me of someone,or at least i wish they were the same*sigh
• drove to kl.konon nak pegi lookout point at ampang.got lost in kl for almost 2 hours.then only we found it.thx to caja for giving the direction n teman me when everyone else were asleep.-.-
• the view was a shiznit.but i think it will be a lot better if we waited for sunrise.but the time wasnt in favour.
• went for sahur.idk how my finger tersepit kat pintu kereta(dayummm dat hurts!)
• drove bck to s.alam.

2nd sept 2010

• accidentally dozed off till i missed my acc class.
• took my csc401 quiz.Alhamdulillah it went well.
• went ss2 to buke puase with aten n huha.and to clbr8 her belated bday.

3rd sept 2010

• took maths logic quiz;totally fucked that one up.bummer.
• went home:)

so that pretty much sums up my week.except for weekends.i'll stop now.toodles

please!!!!!!

http://junkonline.net/articles/3071-Paramore-Live-in-KL-19-Oct

OMG!yes,read rIght everyone.

paramore is coming here!!!!

plz i wanna go!!!

but hell,the date is close to My finals.gosh!

F lah!

serIous shit i NEED to go to dz concert wehhh.huh

my finalS will starts on 25th oct(famy's bday).

so its like a week b4 my exam Starts.

can i just go,please??;(

alrite,enough about paramore for now.i went shopping todaY.with ayen n hizami.got 2 pairs of jeans n baju.still thinking of adding mOre.heheh.we'll see first lah.

n including today,it has been 2 days i havent spoken to him.idk where has he been.or what he is Up to.i'm missing him already.-.-

PATHETIC.yes i know.

n the pain,yup still there..

got no words to say

i didn't wake up for sahur this morning

i wake up earlier than i should just because nak settle ptptn

but then,something happened.

last2,abah said,"dah org tu x nk accept,u apply next sem jelah",,

whattt?????

haiyooo sumpah penat dowh!!

urrggh!dah la mmg dpt sikit.hisshh.

dah la,i'm not gonna curse anyone on this blog.

i'm fasting-without sahur.running out of energy

:(

wrong place,wrong time

i am just so mad,

at myself,,

why?

for getting carried away,

for letting myself overwhelmed by jelousy,,

this is very stupid,,

and suddenly everything that i do tonite,goes wrong.

teh tarik that i made tasted not more than just plain water,,

my blackforest melted-pdhal i placed it at the same place like b4,,

the weather is just too hot tonight,how i wish i could just take of my tee,,

i forgot to take my lecturer's signature as witness for ptptn which i have to submit tomorrow,,

n stop there;ptptn which i only gonna get freaking 4800 bucks for 3 effing years!

and here is the main reason y i feel so messed up;

YOU,yes all i want is for u to be happy,for u to 4get about the past n do wtv it takes to accomplish dat.but i know better.for u to be happy dat way,u hv to move on.n to move on,u hv to find someone else despite how far she is.i know u like her very much..

so,like what i ALWAYS do for u,i'll do wtv it takes to make it work if u want to.

but there is always a part of me,no,not a part.lotssa part that hurting watching u n some other person.lantak lah nk ckp aku jiwang ke hape,i dont giv a fuck.

untill when do i have to suffer like diz??if it is someone else,i will be gone from ur life looong time ago.but its YOU.even u know i cnt make it wo u.so i hv to stay.n i need u to stay.well yeah i know u wont go anywhere.nak x nak,i have to watch u with someone else.coz i cnt bare to see u suffer like the other nite.just pray dat i'm strong enuff to go thru diz.i'm strong enuff to let u be hppy.i'm strong enuff to not get jelous.n i'm strong enuff to let u go 1 day..

E to the M to the O

TIRED

SLEEPY

NUMB

STRESSED

HEADACHE

PISSED OFF

hmm bile post something new je,it must be something emo.y haa?bcoz there's just too much drama-.-

wtf?LOL.i just got bck to my house tday when i was supposed to go bck on friday.y?bcoz i got test on programming sat morning.so kne stay bck lah kan.and so i studied lah for my test ni since i'm not so good with c++.n i thot cm nk tdo quite awl la bcoz after sahur,x nak tdo blk.so around 2 smthing tu,i wanna go to bed dah when sddnly someone called me.dont hv to mention la sape.but he has a prob.so i just listened to his rambling.tup2 da kol 3.i was like..what??dude i got test tomorrow!!den only we got off the fon.and then 5 am i woke up blk sahur n study till 8.n then i sat for the test

after tu terus abah dtg to pick me up.blk2 je pun x tdo terus.settle kan probs aneq.den bru dpt tdo.pstu have to bgn again coz aunty nk dtg.hv to help mummy masak.fuhh!sumpah penat.

TOO MUCH

I just couldn't put it into words.

There's just too much affections.

i've never felt like this.

YOU,

please be happy.

i just can't bare to see u torchuring urself like this.

this is not like u.

When u told me last night,i feel like crying.

because its just too much even for you.

although its not me who has to go through it,

i promise u,i'll be by ur side the whole time.

p/s;i just can't find myself some time to write a blog for my beloved mate,key.i am so sorry.i got caught up with tests n quizzes n stuff.again,happy bday

ohh c++ !

currently in pn hani's class.in the lab precisely.ok,i am quite pissed off rite now.
we,and i really meant all of us,had NO IDEA WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO!
how can we know?she just entered the class, asked us to log in to i-learn,download the crap,and said"u can try to do exercise"
weh wtf weh?!!and then she just sit in front of her pc....n now she already left us.
this is bull.seriously..(oh,mind the vulgar words used.sorry.but this is my blog.i can say wtv i want)

and so here i am blogging while waiting for my project to be compiled.*sigh

so last nite,i decided to take a time off from fb*ceh mcm ape je pulak.
why?bcoz...i had these ridiculous feelings when i'm fb-ing.u see,i have 2 compulsory profile that i have to check on evrytime i'm on9.sounds stupid?yeah i know but i cant help it.LOL.and sometimes,i found some stuff that can make me laughing my ass off.but MOST of the time,i'll end up hurt.pathetic?yeap.i wont deny that.so i guess for this week,i'm gonna spare my heart the aching and just ignore everything.for a while la.haha.

p/s;tomorrow baru nak start fasting.heheee

miserable at best

irony isn't it?how a person can be your strength and weakness in the same time


yup,you are my strength.but you are also my ultimate weakness.i've reach the point where everything u do in ur life,affects me.how is that even possible??
ppl always telling me to just be bold and tell u the truth.but no.i won't.because LOSING you would be the most painful thing that will ever happen to me.

How can i be so sure?because i almost lose you once.and the heart is fragile enough to bare the pain.dah cukup2 lah tu.so i guess this time,it is better left unsaid.

But wait,and now there is a newcomer in my life.we had known each other for quite some time now.everything just ok between us.but there is something about him...
and i can't figure out what it is yet.but i can say that this person makes me anxious.
(whattt laaa??)LOL.

31st july-1st august '10

ASSIGNMENTSSSSSS

CTU 551

CSC 401

ACC 418

QMT 400

MONDAY-3 QUIZZES;MAT422,ACC418,QMT400
1 TEST;CSC415

TUESDAY-PRESENTATION CSC401

AND THE LIST GOES ON...

URGHH!

GILE KE APE?

WAN NUR NABILAH WAN ARIFFIN

Belle Ariffin oooh..ye ke?? mne tau kan org tu ade xtra..hahah
nva mind....btw,yesterday i got call from usm n dpt medic india s...n i think im going
Yesterday at 2:49pm · LikeUnlike

omg!!!belle is going to india.ya Allah sedih nye!!!seriously i was sooo shocked and very2 sad that i cried exactly like i did when i found out famy is leaving for uitm dulu.its hard enough rite now that she is in kelantan and then i found out that she's going to india???

i was so taken aback that i didnt even know what to say.I BEGGED HER NOT TO GO.

i begged her gile2 aa.if i could,i would do anything to make her stay.sumpah sedih gile.

it has been a rough week for me with so many things happened.and now this??

but wtv happens pun,even if i really2 dont want her to go,i have to think what's best for her.and this might be the best apportunity for her.and so i'll accept the fact that she's leaving and just pray for her safety there.

and to you b,

i'm going to miss you gle vavi laa.seriouslyyy.do take care of urself.and make sure u keep ur promise eh?ym dgn s taw?give me all the updates.and u still havent tell me bout dat guy yet.heee.omg sumpah sedih sgt rite now but i'm done crying.tired already.haiihhh.

i think dats all for now.this post is specially made for you.

xoxo

uitm shah alam

27th June 2010 was my first day in uitm.i was quite thrilled for this new experience.
Aneq got into the same campus with me again.yeah,bestfriends.but sadly,famy is not around da.he got into um.good for him.u wont be stuck in there like kat matrik dulu kan syg?LOL.
Honestly,i was a bit scared ynoe.knowing dat i cant see him if i hav a problem or anything makes me unsettled.what would i do without him?tulaaa.i'm so used having him around,always got my back kat matrik dulu.now mcm lost sikit.but its okay:)

and then,kat sini i hang out with anis,nisa,shaza n aten.my friends back at kmm dulu.ade jugak a few other kmm-ians kt situ jugak.just for almost a month,we had a really great time together.seriously.but now,nisa got an offer to ukm.pursuing in her 2nd choice punye course.we were so sad knowing dat she will leave us but in the same time glad laa ething turned out well for her.u tc k nisa?


i am taking degree in information system engineering.it was my 1st choice time apply upu dulu.Alhamdulillah i got accepted.though when i was in kmm dulu,it didnt turned out like what i expected,but its ok.everything happens for a reason.n i know God knows better and what's best for me.and now,i'm gonna do my very best to get great results and insyaAllah be a better person.

and i join silat gayung again.i love it!!best sgt.cikgu sgt sporting and funny.the seniors are okay.the guys r cute;p
on top of it,i'm really glad i got the chance to continue my silat,my passion:)

so i think dats pretty much updates in my life for now.will be continued...

back on track!

heyya fellas!

BACK TO BLOGGING...

gotta lots of catching up,but i'll update later.maybe tonight ke.

waiting for yan to pick me up.heading back to putra.


THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME:)