please!!!!!!

http://junkonline.net/articles/3071-Paramore-Live-in-KL-19-Oct

OMG!yes,read rIght everyone.

paramore is coming here!!!!

plz i wanna go!!!

but hell,the date is close to My finals.gosh!

F lah!

serIous shit i NEED to go to dz concert wehhh.huh

my finalS will starts on 25th oct(famy's bday).

so its like a week b4 my exam Starts.

can i just go,please??;(

alrite,enough about paramore for now.i went shopping todaY.with ayen n hizami.got 2 pairs of jeans n baju.still thinking of adding mOre.heheh.we'll see first lah.

n including today,it has been 2 days i havent spoken to him.idk where has he been.or what he is Up to.i'm missing him already.-.-

PATHETIC.yes i know.

n the pain,yup still there..

got no words to say

i didn't wake up for sahur this morning

i wake up earlier than i should just because nak settle ptptn

but then,something happened.

last2,abah said,"dah org tu x nk accept,u apply next sem jelah",,

whattt?????

haiyooo sumpah penat dowh!!

urrggh!dah la mmg dpt sikit.hisshh.

dah la,i'm not gonna curse anyone on this blog.

i'm fasting-without sahur.running out of energy

:(

wrong place,wrong time

i am just so mad,

at myself,,

why?

for getting carried away,

for letting myself overwhelmed by jelousy,,

this is very stupid,,

and suddenly everything that i do tonite,goes wrong.

teh tarik that i made tasted not more than just plain water,,

my blackforest melted-pdhal i placed it at the same place like b4,,

the weather is just too hot tonight,how i wish i could just take of my tee,,

i forgot to take my lecturer's signature as witness for ptptn which i have to submit tomorrow,,

n stop there;ptptn which i only gonna get freaking 4800 bucks for 3 effing years!

and here is the main reason y i feel so messed up;

YOU,yes all i want is for u to be happy,for u to 4get about the past n do wtv it takes to accomplish dat.but i know better.for u to be happy dat way,u hv to move on.n to move on,u hv to find someone else despite how far she is.i know u like her very much..

so,like what i ALWAYS do for u,i'll do wtv it takes to make it work if u want to.

but there is always a part of me,no,not a part.lotssa part that hurting watching u n some other person.lantak lah nk ckp aku jiwang ke hape,i dont giv a fuck.

untill when do i have to suffer like diz??if it is someone else,i will be gone from ur life looong time ago.but its YOU.even u know i cnt make it wo u.so i hv to stay.n i need u to stay.well yeah i know u wont go anywhere.nak x nak,i have to watch u with someone else.coz i cnt bare to see u suffer like the other nite.just pray dat i'm strong enuff to go thru diz.i'm strong enuff to let u be hppy.i'm strong enuff to not get jelous.n i'm strong enuff to let u go 1 day..

E to the M to the O

TIRED

SLEEPY

NUMB

STRESSED

HEADACHE

PISSED OFF

hmm bile post something new je,it must be something emo.y haa?bcoz there's just too much drama-.-

wtf?LOL.i just got bck to my house tday when i was supposed to go bck on friday.y?bcoz i got test on programming sat morning.so kne stay bck lah kan.and so i studied lah for my test ni since i'm not so good with c++.n i thot cm nk tdo quite awl la bcoz after sahur,x nak tdo blk.so around 2 smthing tu,i wanna go to bed dah when sddnly someone called me.dont hv to mention la sape.but he has a prob.so i just listened to his rambling.tup2 da kol 3.i was like..what??dude i got test tomorrow!!den only we got off the fon.and then 5 am i woke up blk sahur n study till 8.n then i sat for the test

after tu terus abah dtg to pick me up.blk2 je pun x tdo terus.settle kan probs aneq.den bru dpt tdo.pstu have to bgn again coz aunty nk dtg.hv to help mummy masak.fuhh!sumpah penat.

TOO MUCH

I just couldn't put it into words.

There's just too much affections.

i've never felt like this.

YOU,

please be happy.

i just can't bare to see u torchuring urself like this.

this is not like u.

When u told me last night,i feel like crying.

because its just too much even for you.

although its not me who has to go through it,

i promise u,i'll be by ur side the whole time.

p/s;i just can't find myself some time to write a blog for my beloved mate,key.i am so sorry.i got caught up with tests n quizzes n stuff.again,happy bday

ohh c++ !

currently in pn hani's class.in the lab precisely.ok,i am quite pissed off rite now.
we,and i really meant all of us,had NO IDEA WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO!
how can we know?she just entered the class, asked us to log in to i-learn,download the crap,and said"u can try to do exercise"
weh wtf weh?!!and then she just sit in front of her pc....n now she already left us.
this is bull.seriously..(oh,mind the vulgar words used.sorry.but this is my blog.i can say wtv i want)

and so here i am blogging while waiting for my project to be compiled.*sigh

so last nite,i decided to take a time off from fb*ceh mcm ape je pulak.
why?bcoz...i had these ridiculous feelings when i'm fb-ing.u see,i have 2 compulsory profile that i have to check on evrytime i'm on9.sounds stupid?yeah i know but i cant help it.LOL.and sometimes,i found some stuff that can make me laughing my ass off.but MOST of the time,i'll end up hurt.pathetic?yeap.i wont deny that.so i guess for this week,i'm gonna spare my heart the aching and just ignore everything.for a while la.haha.

p/s;tomorrow baru nak start fasting.heheee

miserable at best

irony isn't it?how a person can be your strength and weakness in the same time


yup,you are my strength.but you are also my ultimate weakness.i've reach the point where everything u do in ur life,affects me.how is that even possible??
ppl always telling me to just be bold and tell u the truth.but no.i won't.because LOSING you would be the most painful thing that will ever happen to me.

How can i be so sure?because i almost lose you once.and the heart is fragile enough to bare the pain.dah cukup2 lah tu.so i guess this time,it is better left unsaid.

But wait,and now there is a newcomer in my life.we had known each other for quite some time now.everything just ok between us.but there is something about him...
and i can't figure out what it is yet.but i can say that this person makes me anxious.
(whattt laaa??)LOL.

31st july-1st august '10